詞

夜半靜看    漆黑的小暗巷
一再的憶起    過去愉快的景況
夜半在案    披星戴月去趕
想趕快遺忘    從前共你的開朗

試試狂妄    想打給這遠方
想你聽我講    每一日我的悲愴
貌似硬朗    築起一副武裝
只不過淚水還會有    流不乾

笑我痴心亦好
或笑我蠢亦好
為何你不願說不通報
沒地方可盡訴
解釋我痛楚兼憤怒
發瘋等幾句話可知道

決意盡興    欣賞孤單美景
不忍再傾聽    你那無恙的歌聲
沒有路徑    心早開始結冰
一敲已碎開    溶化了如粒星

笑我痴心亦好
或笑我蠢亦好
為何你不願說不通報
沒地方可盡訴
解釋我痛楚兼憤怒
發瘋等幾句話可知道

說過下次    不找肩膀靠倚
不想似舊時    愛換來萬千根刺
沒法暫止    交心只可三思
可希冀下位    能與你毫不似



爛透的詞。

詢

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善

我盡力對每一個人好。
只要可以做到的我也願意幫忙。只要我愛你，你幹了甚麼過分的我也忍不住想要告訴你，不想你碰釘子。哥哥被罵的話，只要他不太過分或被冤枉了的話，我也會嘗試求情和說好話。即使我們的友誼已成過去，你有事時我還是會救你。
令人稍微感到傷心的是，即使你怎樣對人好，怎樣真心希望別人快樂，別人依然會以小人之心度君子之腹，說你是在演討好別人的戲。

放

The genuine way to let go is not to forget, but to smile in a way which he'll realise that he has lost someone awesome.


我要狠狠地笑！ ‧▽‧

缸

我把你困在我心裡的大魚缸中。
你還是那樣地悠然自得地游來游去，而我只能隔着玻璃看着你的一顰一笑，卻半點觸摸不得。我能珍藏你，你卻永不再珍視我。
我大惑不解。你被我困住，神情卻那麼自由；我是自由的，卻偏離不開大魚缸旁，只能死死盯着你。
難以再接近。我只能白白看着你在踏碎了我的心後，在玻璃另一頭跟魚兒玩得不亦樂乎。
我只能希望你還會愛那些魚兒。至少，讓我當最後一個受害者吧。


Poppies In July    Sylvia Plath

Little poppies, little hell flames,
Do you do no harm?

You flicker. I cannot touch you.

I put my hands among the flames. Nothing burns

And it exhausts me to watch you
Flickering like that, wrinkly and clear red, like the skin of a mouth.

A mouth just bloodied.
Little bloody skirts!

There are fumes I cannot touch.
Where are your opiates, your nauseous capsules?

If I could bleed, or sleep!
If my mouth could marry a hurt like that!

Or your liquors seep to me, in this glass capsule,
Dulling and stilling.

But colourless. Colourless.

好了，傷春悲秋的post最近發得太多，我要到此為止了。

我不能在沉浸在憂傷裡頭太久。畢竟兩個月了。畢竟只是個好朋友。

記

說甚麼已放下了……我是很婆媽，我是很煩人。我不能不承認我兩個月來天天在痛。
為甚麼你無處不在？我經常說服自己不必為你傷心：你很自私、你太高調、你很幼稚、你長得很醜……但我怎麼也無法恨你。雖然我也很想你回來，但我更想你快樂。
我答應了自己，終有一天，你只會是個陌生人。那時候我會把我現在社交網上苦着臉的頭像換掉。那時候我不會再怕講起你，直接叫你的名字我也不會畏懼。
前幾天你跟我說話了。老實說，兩個月來還是首次聽你跟我說那麼一大段話。縱使只是公事，我知道你是迫不得已、避無可避才開口的，但我還是暗暗感到安慰了一會。甚麼時候，友誼竟變得如此卑微？我居然只在盼你一句話，盼你一個微笑，盼你一個回答。
不是失去也不會知道自己用情之深。太可笑了，只是因為一個好朋友我的世界已暗下來，難以想像將來如果我面對更痛的事時——失戀、親人故去時我會怎樣。我是太年輕愚鈍了。
還有人在身邊。我不用害怕，我完全不用害怕。

雨

我的悲傷必不會長久。

為甚麼不敢愛我？

November Rain


When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away
If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone
I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my 
own Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain, ohhh yeahhh
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain


Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one 

迷

五月第一個blog post。
我這是幹甚麼了，最近怎麼寫blog寫得那麼勤……
Bossa Nova果然是我最喜愛的音樂類型。輕鬆柔和、慵懶甜美、浪漫性感……聽起來有在Teahouse或café的感覺。好像一切都慢下來了，一切都可以不用那麼急。這是絕對的治癒系音樂。
讓我們沉睡吧。小野麗莎老師，請帶領我們。
（唉我在說甚麼）